I haven't blogged in a while cause I'm feeling like my blog sucks! There are so many great ones out there. I'm not loving mine so much! I just don't know, I don't really say too much so I'm not sure if they are good to read! I mean, for me it's like a little diary, that I censor a little of course, but not sure if what I'm actually feeling is getting across. Although I have written a ton in school, college etc, I am not a writer. I have finally started writing my screenplay and damn, I am terrible! My ideas are screaming to get out onto the page, but so far, it's not translating into what I had hoped. I feel this may take years, and thousands of revisions, but hey it feels amazing regardless. I have produced but never written. I've had this TV show in my head for about six years. I'm finally writing the pilot. But anyway that's when I started thinking about my blog and how that was translating as well!
Sooo...Thursday night. So beat. What a week. I just need sleep. wow. I just wrote that like a rhyme. A bad bad rhyme.
Ok so yeah, went Vancouver, Toronto, Los Angeles, then back up to Vancouver (next week) then back to Toronto again then....don't know. Have not decided. Things change on a dime. But needless to say, I am giving myself a night to relax. This pilot season has been amazing but so hard. SO close to two huge studio shows, tested for both but did not end up with either one in the end. So as thankful as I am for the opportunities, I am sad. And allowing myself to mourn! This job really takes the piss out of you, and many people cave, give in, and join the bitter train when things don't go their way. But I refuse to. It is after all, what I love to do, and with the ups, there are the downs and then you keep going. I will keep going! But tonight, is my night to curl up and feel sorry for myself. The good news? I'm in beautiful sunny hot California and will wake up to sun and run and a coffee. Life is good! Wait, I'm supposed to be bummed tonight...ok back to that!
Best treat, Pinkberry with blueberries, strawberries, and mochi. Screw you Yogurtland, I don't care how LA it is to switch, I'm staying with Pinkberry.
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